Today my heart is longing for the “not now” and “not yet” and “no”. An ache that is filled both with hope, potential, and possibility, and sorrow and grief.

Life in its current state feels unstable, as though the slightest imbalance will cause an avalanche that I will not be able to stop. While there is goodness in the current moment, my heart cannot help but see the possibility for the future and reach out for it in desperate, yearning grasps.

For the “Not now” – the things that I have been doing that are good, rich, and God-honoring, but that are not meant for this season. Things that I’ve said goodbye to, or am in the process of walking away from.

For the “Not Yet” – the things that I know God has in store for me in the future, or that could be, but that require waiting, time, and patience.

For the “No” – the hardest ones to come to terms with. The things my heart aches for that I know will never be because they are not meant for me, they are meant for someone else.

Jesus is certainly enough for me in this life. In fact, there have been moments in my life that the Hope of Jesus is all that I could find to cling to.

But I fully believe God did not create us to simply acquiesce to the here and now. Hope and vision for the future are built into our DNA. We wait expectantly for the coming of Jesus while being faithful to the work He has for us today.

Be steadfast, friends, and look for Him in the here and now, and you will find Him. Seek the next best step from Him, however small, and He will show it to you. And most importantly bask in the goodness of the now and in all of the richness that simply being with your Savoir can bring.