I almost didn’t remember what today was.
I went through half of my day as though it were any other normal day.
And because of God’s great grace and protection, it was just any other normal day.
Six years ago in Arusha, Tanzania it was anything but another normal day.
I was looking at my social media memories, like one does, and saw a post from 5 years ago that said this, “One year ago today, God saved my life and the lives of four of my favorite people. I know there is no reason I should be here other than God’s amazing grace and mercy. I am so thankful. I will live each day for Him. I am not afraid of anything with Christ at my side. Amazing Love.”
I froze on the screen, staring at the words I had written. Time has certainly healed from that day 6 years ago when my ministry team and I were in a severe rollover car accident, so far from everything with which we were familiar.
But while time heals, it also has the ability to make us forget. Older memories begin to fade to make room for current adventures that create new memories. So, while I was staring at my own words on the screen feelings of disappointment swept over me.
Am I living out each day for him with the same fervor I had 5 years ago? Do I spend time being thankful that I am here at all, and grasp the opportunities God has presented me to make His name known? Am I honoring the gift of life he has given me?
These are questions that crossed my mind briefly this afternoon, but I pray that these are things that I reflect upon daily. I pray this for each of you, too. May we live each day for Him.
From an Open Heart 
Great post, Jami. I think it’s normal for idealists to look at the present moment and feel like they aren’t doing enough. You’re preaching to my personal choir here. But it’s important to look at our own history. You experienced a life changing event 6 years ago. I don’t know what you did in years 0-3(ish), but in the last 3 or so, you’ve connected to a church, been a key person in worship there, then launched a new church, are a key person, and are driving that ministry forward in several ways…and that’s just what I know. I also know that you took the time to genuinely ask about me today. Thank you for that. You are honoring God through the gifts that he has given you.:)
Stan, your encouragement means so much to me. Like, literal tears. So, thank you! I always want to recognize how God has used me, but I never want to be found complacent.