For a long while now, I have struggled to be able to think outside of myself. I got to a point where I had failed to take care of my mental and emotional needs because of my love for and urge to take care of and give to others in this way. 

Even typing it out loud sounds like I am trying to make a martry out of myself. 

But in reality many of us do this. We give our all to others people and things outside of ourselves and we neglect the importantance of self-care. Jobs, relationships, maintaining a home, keeping up physical appearances, taking care of our material possessions, and so on. 

When we are constantly driving through life without filling up the gas tank, what’s going to happen, eventually? We’re gonna break down. 

In 2016, I broke down. And fixing my “car” has taken a lot longer than it would have if I had just stopped for gas. 

It’s also been a difficult journey in figuring out exactly what is broken down. So that I can start working on it and get back on the road. 

Only recently have I been able to pull out of what has felt like a selfish time in my life an led truly be able to give to others in a way that finally makes me feel like myself again. And even that I take lightly and hesitantly because these spurts of life can come and go. 

I pray that if you don’t already know, you figure out what your “stopping for gas” is and that you truly take the time to fill up the tank. 

Regardless, if you seek him, your Heavenly Father will be with you each step of the way and will be your AAA when you breakdown on the side of the road in the pouring rain at 11PM. 

P.S. I really committed to the gas tank analogy, and apologize to those of you who possibly found it cheesy, I agree, but I do not, however, regret it. Good day.